Taking it day by day.

Countdown to #16!!! I am soooo glad that rounds 1 through 4 are over!!! CELEBRATING!!! I stopped blogging for a while because it was hard to be positive and even though it is very theraputic to vent and be able to get it all out, I was at my low and I knew that if I wrote it down it would bring me down further. I had my last round of the " big dog", as we are calling it, and I finally took the steroids and extra fluids. Truthfully, it was one of the easier rounds, I would not recommend holding off on the steroids, or the extra fluids, they seriously made a WORLD of a difference. I was trying too hard to tough it out, not to say that it was easy, however, it was easier. Some folks who have already experienced it, can't believe I did it without. That made me proud. But then thought to myself, why? Because I was sicker? So silly how pride can take you places. So my pride has been set free!!! So much so, I was at a concert Wednesday night and some friends wanted to see my hea

As I began this process I realized that I wanted to be a natural as possible fighting through with limited amount of drugs.... Totally irrationally.... I was taking half the dose of anti nausea medicine...didn't know it. This last round was the easiest.   Advise from me. Take the steroids the first time, and take the extra doses of fluids. It makes a world of a difference!!! I am finally at 70% like the doc initially said. Aimee said it perfectly to me the past few days. It is only for a short time. You aren't going to be on these medicines forever, not only that they aren't addictive. I don't feel poisoned this time, just tired. Aimee was a nurse sent from heaven too. So very grateful that I had her here for me. I also believe my faith has brought me to this. I needed to have this last round done and I needed to make sure that I am going to see my children, and my grandchildren grow up. I know this is what God wants for me. I feel it in my heart. Until I post again