Taking it day by day.

So when they talk about chemo brain, they aren't kidding. I am so spacey!! I am not remembering a whole lot, which I suppose could be good ... maybe?? I don't think so, finding the butter in the pantry is not so good. New fave foods: Since everything sounds terrible, I have found yummy go to foods. *yogurt *peanut butter and waffles, yummy! Dinner tonight, Chaz's brilliant idea. He ate waffles too! *bacon, I know that is weird. *Artichokes (even stranger! That is what I ate for dinner last night.) *Iced tea, coffee is a little rough on the tummy right now. and *Perrier!! And of course water.

I wrote the first part yesterday, but was so tired that I couldn't post it. Way too tired... (yesterday) So today was the day. I am very tired. I have to say that I think that it is a combination of just getting back from a trip an being hit with a flat head shovel. Little headache and a gurgley tummy and I kinda feel like I am floating through the motions of eating, rocking the baby, reading books and doing homework with the kids. I am calm and it is truly incredible how quickly your coloring changes. I look like I don't feel good and Josh is more worried now to leave me alone. I think it is my coloring. I got there this am after getting the big kids off to Tera's to take them to school and Lennox to Kristy's for some play time with their two year old. Thanks you all for your help. They started with two medicines that helped with nausea( about 1 hour no reaction, felt nothing). Accessing the port was a piece of cake. Then they had to pump in the (the A) Adriamycin t

We lost a family friend yesterday to cancer. She was a fighter. She was Zach's nurse when he was a baby and one of the best ticklers I remember. Lindsay and I would just lay there and she would just tickle our backs!!! This world will miss this wonderful woman.  I also remember that she started to make her own jewelry during her remission. I don't believe that she was in remission for long before the damn disease took over her, but I know she is in a better place. She is no longer feeling pain. Praise God for taking away her pain, but sad to see her go....You will be missed Kathy.

So I just had the port put in. It was sooo cute my son the night before my said "you are going to the dr again? Are ya getting your new boobies?" Love him!!! Anyway, I didn't expect it to happen the way it did but thank God it is in and now I will recover AGAIN a bit.  I had local and "twilight" anaesthesia.  I popped out of  my sleep a little faster. As a matter of fact, I was on the table, and gave the docs in the operating room a Peace sign and a smile... WHoops!! I knew twilight could have that effect on me. Thank goodness I didn't start talking about my personal life!!! I actually lost my voice!! The Lords way of helping me save face;) They took the port tube up through my right carotid vein, so they needed to use a little local near it. Some people have their vocal cord lay close and some of the anaesthesia got to it so I lost my voice for a bit.  It doesn't happen very often so they thought it was just a dry throat due to oxygen . They my voice

I don't even know where to begin. How in the world have I/we gotten so lucky? I mean there is not a thing that this world has that I can give others for their kindness. I am seriously at a loss of words, and emotionally grateful.(sprung a huge eye leak!!) Thank you for helping us try to sell this other house. All of you. Mom & Dad gosh, can't begin to tell you how grateful I am that you are soooo supportive!! Linds. and Greg, thank you for providing love support, and furniture! And Peter whom barely knows us but gives without question... The Parks and McCoys....on a cold day like today and you are all in there staging it!! OMG!! I don't know who else is there because I think it was supposed to be a surprise, so for those of you I don't mention.. thank you I only hope that I will be able to repay you all someday the way you all have so selflessly given.....

I have to say that the natural route that has been suggested by many has not been in clinical studies. Not enough of them anyway. -5 apples a day, (I don't think I could do this) -baking soda and maple syrup, (interesting) -some sort of mushroom tea in which I need to grow my own mushrooms, (do you think I will grow it correctly, last thing I need is to start tripping out on my home-grown-mushrooms) -Another type of tea (Essiac) that I have to buy 5 different herbs, make sure I brew it in a glass container not metal or aluminum, (Can't even pronounce some of the herbs) -Don't drink water from water bottles, (Tell me Nalgene, is it a good idea to have a glass water bottle with a 1 year old?) -Install a double filtration system in my water filters, because the first one never really gets out everything (Seriously? What is the purpose of a filtration system if it doesn't work?) .... I get it. My lifestyle may need to change a bit. We rarely eat out, we have been jui